1.25.15 | The Heart Wants What It Wants – Selena Gomez

Standout Lyric/s – The future that we hold is so unclear / But I’m not alive until you call / And I’ll bet the odds against it all / Save your advice ’cause I won’t hear / You might be right but I don’t care / There’s a million reasons why I should give you up / But the heart wants what it wants

I finally got to see my best friend in the new year! I already wrote about her before (Wildflowers -Tom Petty) but sometimes you just gotta write about your best friend a million times. 😛
We did a lot of talking, grabbed some lunch, and went to Ulta and went to get some Cinnabuns at Target. This, I told her, is what makes me feel normal. Hanging out with her, discussing ANYTHING that pops into our minds. We have discussed Selena Gomez probably a million times. How we want to be her, sing like her, act like her, why she ever goes back to stupid Justin Beiber, everything. When Selena came out with this song, I texted Kaitlynn immediately to ask her if she had seen/heard it. When she finally listened, she said that it reminded her of her relationship with theatre.
This whole crazy thing that we get into where others get to judge us and tell us if we’re good enough to get “the part.” But yet we love it, we love the feeling we get, when the lights go down, and the curtains open, and we get to perform. People everyday ask us, “Why would you get into theater? Doesn’t it not pay well?” or “Thats your job?” or “What else do you do?” saying that doing theater isn’t enough. We constantly defend it.
Lately, I’ve definitely felt a disconnect with the theatre world, because I feel like at the moment I wouldn’t be doing it for me, but for the directors or just to do a show. I want to participate in something that I believe in and that’s going to make me feel great about defending it every day of my life. And I haven’t really got that feeling from anything lately. I hope it comes back and hits me right in the butt! But until then, I’m not going to do much. I’ll probably talk about this a lot more in future posts, but it was a great day hanging out with Kaitlynn.

Yours for the listening,